Why can’t I get it right?
Yes, I do realize that it is SUNDAY! I have spent a large part of the day debating over posting this. I have decided to post it, with a qualification. I am generally an upbeat and optimistic person, but every once in a while I experience a twinge of discontent.
This feeling, while uncomfortable, is essential in stimulating growth. If I was constantly and consistently content, I would never feel the need to make any changes in my life. That niggling feeling that something isn’t quite right provides a crucial impetus to personal development.
That being said, it still boggles my mind that 17 years of marriage and 5 kids later, we still do not know how to create a beautiful, uplifting and inspirational Friday night. Despite my best efforts, we all arrive at the Shabbat table Friday night in complete disarray. We are clean and well dressed but it is just a show. Inside, we are hungry and tired and often feel like we have run a marathon, without the adreneline buzz!
Granted once we eat, we all become mostly human again. Until we get too tired for coherent conversation… When we wake up in the morning, rested and recharged, we forget all about our Friday night troubles and wholeheartedly enter the realm of Shabbat. And it is wonderful!